Reflecting on the Past Year & Looking Ahead to the Future
Well hello! It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted on here and I feel like I owe you an explanation. Last year was, let’s just say, not my favourite year. In a nutshell, the last year was incredibly challenging for me in many ways, and ultimately my mental health suffered. For the back end of 2018, I didn’t feel like myself at all. I was sad, angry, foggy, unmotivated, grouchy, exhausted – my mental health suffered, which in turn led to my physical health suffering too.
I would go to my 9-5 job, come home at the end of the day and sit on the couch until it was time to go to bed. I wanted to stay cocooned in my own, safe space and not talk to anyone.
I would come home after work and feel mentally drained from human interaction. It was unchartered territory for me, the usually self-motivated, driven, social butterfly.
Around the end of August I decided that being so attached to social media definitely wasn’t helping my mental state, so I decided to take a break. I didn’t delete the apps from my phone, but did significantly cut down on screen time, sometimes going days in between looking at my phone. (Which also didn’t help my response time to texts and phone calls, but that’s an ongoing battle I don’t think I’ll ever win.)
And what started out as a social detox weekend, turned into a week, which turned into a month, which turned into 5 months. To be honest, it felt so nice to not be obsessing over everyone else’s highlight reels and focus on my own health instead. It felt nice to not feel inadequate, or small, or lacking in some way as soon as I opened Instagram. It felt nice to be present, to not be concerned about projecting a perfect image, and to live in the moment. It felt nice.
Gradually I started to feel myself again. I started going back to the gym, I started cooking in the kitchen and I started doing the things that made me happy. I didn’t force it (although the old Amy would have tried to get back to my old ways in a week) and instead let time be the best healer. I knew better things were coming, I just had to be patient and trust that my mind, and my body, would come around in the end.
And here I am, writing my first (of many) blog posts in 2019. I’m so excited to be back in this space again; writing about what truly sets my soul on fire: food, nutrition, holistic wellbeing, exercise, and everything in between.
As soon as the new year hit, I was very quick to dismiss the past 12 months as a blip, and put it away in a box that I never have to look at again. But then I realized that despite 2018 being so incredibly hard for me, I was still able to accomplish some pretty amazing things. Things that I should reflect on and, more importantly, celebrate as I look ahead to the next 365 days.
2018: My Accomplishments & Highlights
I launched my blog (oh hey!),
I threw myself into CrossFit (even though I was scared shitless),
I travelled to Ottawa to see one of my closest friends,
I pushed through a harder-than-any-race-I’ve-ever-ran 30k and came out the other side,
I travelled to Las Vegas for my company’s global conference,
I ran a PB at the Sporting Life 10k (yay for fast races),
I travelled back to Ottawa in May to run my first marathon,
I became a monthly contributor to Healthy is Hot, a wellness and lifestyle blog,
I ran the Lululemon 10k,
I joined a group of awesome ladies for a monthly Sweat & Potluck networking series,
I created an e-book full of healthy and easy breakfast ideas,
I travelled to Vancouver and Victoria to see one of my favourite people get married,
I organized an amazing football weekend to see Notre Dame for some of my favourite friends,
I turned 30! (ahh),
I travelled to Mexico for a girl’s trip to see one of my oldest high school friends get married,
I travelled to Montreal and walked, what seemed like for hours, in search of the best poutine and bagels (shout out to my incredible boyfriend, Andrew, for that surprise trip)
I delivered a presentation to all 130 people at my tech job,
I organized the second annual Shoebox Project campaign at my work, building 60 shoeboxes full of gifts for women in need in the downtown Toronto community.
I delivered a sales pitch to room full of men for another tech company, and they loved it (terrifying, but so worth the experience)!
I’m sure I am not the only one that feels like it is so much easier to remember the bad, than the good. But this experience has showed me that once you take the time to really think about what you’ve accomplished, it’s an incredible feeling.
This last year was a year of growth for me. It was a year to cry (a lot), to challenge my relationships, to listen to my heart, to take a step back, to take a step forward, to learn what truly makes me happy, to learn to stay true to myself and to remember that this journey is mine, and no one else's.
I’m excited for what lies ahead. I’m excited to see what else I can accomplish, and what incredible people I’m going to meet, and have an impact on, along the way.
Cheers to 2019! xo